It's not fun being sick whether it is from a simple flu virus or cancer. As I recuperate this past week from a cold flu virus, I believe that it is sometimes God's way to allow us to be in "Quiet Nothingness"!
(borrowed from the 3-minute Retreat). For when I'm removed from the worries of daily living that I truly am 100% with God when I pray, when I talk to Him in silence, in my heart. He lives in my heart after all. I learn to talk to Jesus like I am talking to a dear friend. When you have a true friend, no matter how long you haven't seen each other it doesn't matter. For when you see your true friend again it's like the time span didn't matter. We pick up where we left off and we enjoy each other's company. We continue sharing our ups and downs and worries big and small. This is funny but I do talk to Jesus while I'm in the bathroom doing my business. At my age, I have problems with irregularities (only those people who have had this can relate to this, so sorry if you can't). So when I do become regular, I thank the Lord with all my heart! ;)
Back to quiet nothingness. Yes, when I'm quiet, not talking, not thinking of work or school or the bills, I can have a great conversation with God. He has granted all of the desires of my heart and more! At times I'm overwhelmed with His goodness, grace and mercy. I don't deserve all of the good things and yet the holy spirit prompts me to share the goodness and gifts to others. He expects a lot from me when He gives me more than I asked for.
As I was reading other blogs, I got redirected to the blog of Ignatian Spirituality.com, inspired by the Ignatius Loyola's love of "Magis" - the greater, the excellent, the best. The author talks about "What more can I do to respond to God's love?" Magis is not about striving toward achievement for the sole purpose of completing more work. Rather, magis is just like a gentle reminder from a loving parent who knows your greatest potential, "I expect more from you."
